TRAPPED, IN BLISS

she was everything i ever wanted. beautiful, smart, funny. and so much more that words could never do justice. she was the sun and the moon, the air that i breathed. 'everything' seems like such a small word, but its the best i can do.

from the moment we met, i fell for her. fell hard... and way too fast. i should have known then. right at that moment. that it was all too whimsical, and too impossible to be true. i guess i should have turned around and walked away. but i didn't. instead, i smiled and walked up to her. that's it... right then, that was when my life changed. that is the one moment i would take back if only i could. and oh how i wish i could do just that.

she showed me so many new things, new ways, and opened my mind to an entirely new world. everything was the text book version of 'perfection'... at first. then, one day, everything was different. she had changed. i didn't notice it then, but now i realize that the whole world had changed... because of her. because of what she was, or maybe what she'd become. i was no longer in control of anything, and before i knew it, she had swallowed me whole.

i've been here, in her little world, for so long now that i dont even remember much about what used to pass as my life. its like being trapped in a persons heart. feeling everything they supress, all that they hide from everyone but themselves. she doesnt even look the same to me anymore. she's just some random monster from some kids closet... a random monster that i fell in love with, and to this day still love. maybe im just hopelessly trapped inside her web, or maybe this is love. i dont know for sure. but, even after all that ive found out, all the horror stories, this current situation even... i do still love her. with all my heart.

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